Day 4- Drama

With four days to go I should be excited, pumped up and ready to pack. But now...I'm very disappointed.Our new costumes are Sakura and Syaoran. We were lucky enough to get those on time (a day early too!) but now the one photo shoot we've been looking forward to isn't happening. The Tsubasa/XXXHolic photo shoot isn't happening because I'm the only one who's tried to set a time and place, while everyone else dropped off the face of the world. That really made me saddened. I was hoping to meet more CLAMP cosplayers and hopefully make some new friends for future cosplay groups.

Before that happened I found out my friend isn't able to go because her group decided to exclude her and we had already had a full room. I wish she would have told me a head of time so I could have shared a room with her so she would be able to go.

I'm just so disappointed this year wont go as planned. Besides wearing our cosplays, shopping is the only other thing we're looking forward to. I have a feeling we're going to be excluded from what friends are going and are going to be stuck by ourselves at lot. Which isn't bad, Nic and I like being alone. We were just hoping to meet a lot of new people and make friends at this con since we were unable to during Sakura-con.

I really don't understand why things are falling a part four days before the con but I just can't get excited or even happy about going. We might wind up skipping the next K-con. I have only been to this con once but already I'm not feeling it. It's heart breaking because I love this hobby so much. I just don't understand why I'm feeling so upset about it. I don't think I'll ever do a con photo shoot again, that's for sure. Too much of a hassle. Pictures don't turn out well anyway.

It's weird being glum over a con. My hubby is excited. He's pumped to wear his new cosplay but I feel like this has been a waste of time and we're never going to be able to meet new people when they keep flaking on us. We did have a little CLAMP photo shoot planned with a Yuko but she never replied with a time or location so I'm guessing that won't happen either.


At this point I'm done dealing with people. I try really hard to be nice and help. But they never are willing to do the same. To be there for us and ask us to do things with them. It's tiring. Don't get me wrong. We'll keep cosplaying. We love it too much. I love sewing and styling wigs, putting on our make-up. I'm not giving that up. We'll just be more private I guess. Let people come up to us. I feel like I'm stuck in high school again. This drama is so old. I just want to have fun.

So I guess I'll just have to focus on my hubby and enjoy my costumes. The interview will be fun too. So as long as I look forward to the fun things and not what could have been I think I might be okay. At least I hope so.