Everything can go bad so quickly

Its amazing how thing can go badly so fast. My fiance has been cut back another day. Now works two days.  Like my mom and another woman, they are trying to get all three of them to quit so the manager can have more of her friends and family work there. Its ruining our lives. Their greed is the downfall of so many people...well three people's happiness. They hired another person and gave the excuse "We had to hire another person because of your trip" Yet last year they didn't hire another person when we went or the year before. So why now? Because they want him to quit but he wont until he has another job.

He can't buy my my dream dress now. All because of this stupid con. We're torn. Do we just give up on all this hard work and say fuck it. Or do we go with barely any money. I suppose I shouldn't have gotten excited about that dress. I know good things never happen to me. My last few birthdays have been a failure. Why wouldn't the biggest birthday a person can have be good for me too? 

I don't know what to do at this point. Whether just give up and or sit here and cry. I feel so pathetic. Crying over a damn dress is like crying over spilled milk. I've worked so hard on these costumes and waited so long to get into the contest. Now I just want to stop everything and quit. I never quit. 

I just don't understand how everything can go so good then suddenly crumble apart within a few hours. At this point the stress is so bad I feel so guilty. I can't pay for anything. I'm still waiting to hear back from that job. Which I doubt I got. I don't know what to do. This trip was supposed to be fun, a break from all this drama in our lives. A way to disappear and let go of reality. What else could go wrong this year? 

I don't know why I'm even bothering writing all this when no one ever comments or even follows this blog. But I suppose I don't have anyone else to tell this stuff to and I can't keep it bottled up or I might explode. I want advice, I want help but I have none. So whining to this blog will have to do. I just wish I could do more. So my fiance doesn't have to deal with all this alone. I want to work and make money to support our hobby too. I feel so useless. I suppose I always have been.